I sit and wait for answers that I can not hear at this time. What questions can I ask to relieve me from this abuse, addiction, pain? Help me see how to create another way beyond this way. I am stuck, sad, tired and angry. I feel alone & abandoned. I cry and wait for an answer, I can NOT move one more inch the way I have been moving. Teach me to be still and I will listen for when, where and how to move. Where I am paralyzed, I pray bring life in. Let these tears be the crystalized fears that are melting out of my being. Illuminate me and fill the darkness with light until I break free from how I have been existing. Teach me a new way. Plant in me the seeds and I will tend to them. Where I am wrong, make me right. Let these seeds inform me on what to think, whom to love and how to act. I surrender God, as a garden to you. Make me a garden of Eden. Take these weeds and pull what has overtaken me. Turn the soil of abandoned earth of my soul and make me the grower of fruit baring trees. Nourish and sustain me. I promise to share the seeds from the fruit of my soul with the brothers and sisters of this planetary family.
And so it is. Thank you, thank you, thank you.